Today is a year marking the beginning of this project.
I was composing a blog post last night looking at the highlights of this year when it occurred to me that it is time to say goodbye. It was only meant to be a year long, sketch a day project anyway. But look at all that happened! I went to Italy! I was in hospital for ten days in Germany! My husband wrote a beautiful post/ letter to me! Etcetera!
And now I am falling into a composing a high lights post and it’s not what I really want to do.
What I wanted to say is that last night I read over everything and realised how much has changed. I begun this is the depths of a European winter, I was driven by isolation and I got connected. I got heard when I felt completely voiceless. I’ve been lucky enough to make friends here. I’ve been lucky enough to find support here and I am lucky enough to read over this and see that year ago me was aiming for where today me is:
I am back in Australia, I am just about to move into my very own home, I have my husband, my baby girl and my health. There have been a lot of hiccups but ultimately we are heading in the right direction.
Ultimately I got through things I didn’t think I would get through.
So with the impending move, I am getting my life back on track. I’ve been signed to a gallery and I am working towards a solo exhibition mid year in Melbourne. I’ve also got relationships and friendships that I seriously want to make time for. I want to avoid the busy epidemic.
Thank you to everyone who has read this, shared this, loved this, hated this, commented on this, written to me, given me a call, made me a coffee, published my stuff.
I will leave with my favourite post eve
I’ve spent the day with you – your blue eyes and red cheeks. Your golden curls and sticky skin. You smell sweet – like white chocolate. You’re laughing at birds and mimicking Molly – who I think you like. You’re toddling wildly down the streets and crying at the rules that I make to keep you fed, clean and rested. You forgive me pretty quickly. You’ve decorated the house with new water features – jamming soil and plastic into a tall drinking glasses. You’ve altered meals – smashed strawberries and old rice onto the pizza that I made for our dinner. You’ve demanded me to fix things and when you learn that I cannot fix them, you accept it but are puzzled. You’ve gone to bed with all the things you are attached to – a large koala bear, a bottle of water, a dummy and a little square book. It’s becoming quite the event, putting you to bed. You wave at me from your clean cot and say bye bye to me and I’m released back to time with myself. And all I do is draw something for you, write about you and dote on the memory of you.
I will be blogging here when I am ready: BLOG
Thank you again!
Berlin Domestic
xox
